Prayers are out to him

An old friend from high school that I knew was reported missing. When I saw and heard this I was shocked, and at first I thought it was a joke. Its not a joke now, he's really missing. What the hell is this world coming to? I know I really just saw him around with friends at parties or just around Torrance, but damn, its so weird that this happened. Please put Charles in your prayers for a safe return home.



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The dedication takes a life time, but the dreams only last for the night

Winter winter winter. Its freezing, my nose is runny, and the sun is going down at 5. Weird. Its Thanksgiving on Thursday! Weird as can be that it's here already. But I am excited to see my loves again! Christmas is around the corner, and I'm really behind on everything. Boo boo! :[ oh well, I can pick up my slack. And I am currently in LOVE with the boys from ATL <3. Watch "Dear Maria Count Me In" and you'll see what I mean :)



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My Winter To-Do List!

MY WINTER TO-DO LIST ! :D



I plan on having one hell of a winter break! Especially since school doesn't start for a while and I have the time and the leisure to do as I please again. So since that's the case, I plan to have an absolutely wonderful winter.
Here goes the plans...


-Ice Skating
-Bowling
-Christmas with my family & loves
-Disneyland when everyone comes home
-Snowboarding with the group
-San Fran/Oakland to see Karli
-Candy Cane Lane
-Christmas parties!
-Dressing up
-DABs fancy dinner
-DABs nights
-Sleeping in
-The Starbucks Seasonal menu! I love the Christmas drinks
-Making lots and lots of $$$
-Holiday Shopping
-Thanksgiving
-Foooooooooood comas
-Camping
-Meteor showers
-Star gazing
-New Years extravaganza!





I'm in love with the winter season!


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Autumn brings in the new

OH MY FUCKING GOD. The September Issue looks amaaaaaazing<3. Anna Wintour is one amazing woman. I love love that woman! She is the goddess of fashion, she is the most influential woman in the industry! I love her <3 so much!!


Anyways, its already almost Thanksgiving!! Yay for food and for family and friends. Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays because it combines food & shopping. What else could be better?!? Nothing, well minus Christmas just because I love all the Christmas spirit in the air and all! And when Thanksgiving & Christmas comes around, that means all my friends that left for college are coming home! I can finally see them again! I'm pretty excited to see everyone when they're home! Love love love all around.


This may be off topic, but Krystle ( my best friend ) and I had a conversation about band boys, and the lead singer from The Starting Line looked SO cute in the "Best of Me" video, then he grew a fro and looked weird. Also from ATL Alex and Jack won me over, but Zach, the guitarist, looked SO SO SO cute in the "Poppin' Champagne" video! Also in the "Six Feet Under the Stars" video! So adorable<3 Just toss your current fro and you'll be a cutie.(:

I'm done with my rant for the night. I need to sleep, been up since 9 and got 5 hrs of sleep today. I will most definitely sleep til 3 tomorrow :) Good night loves



xoxo<3

The Heart of The Matter

Everything that we do is magical. We're all important and sometimes I forget that. Lately I haven't been doing too well. Like I'm grateful for my health and well being, but not for the inconspicuous drama in my life. And all of the heartache I've been getting. I know broken hearts mend over time, but I can't help but to wonder how long, and when will I be happy again? I've been having a hard time grasping onto that idea. The idea that once again I'm on my own, and alone. Vulnerable to the world, scared of what to do with myself, and not knowing what direction to take. It also doesn't help when I feel like nobody wants me around them. Especially at home for now. Its dark energy that I can't be around for now. Its too hard. But I won't go into deep detail about that.

Yes I did fuck up my relationship, and most of the blame can go onto me. But I will say that I loved him with my heart, and now since its over, its over and I can't fix it ever. I also hope that he can find someone better than myself, because I don't deserve a guy like him. I will be able to move on though and I'll be able to learn from this experience.

Shit Shows and Candy Whores.

Oh fuck halloween was so ridiculous. Two days straight of binge drinking? I think my liver hates me. But oh my god, San Diego showed us all some lovin'. But back to behaving and going M.I.A to go to work and school. That will be my life probably from now on! Hehe.

Ok so here's what went down on Friday night. I got to SD at 5:30, hung out with Jake and his roomies + Richie and we went to eat. Went to get ready, waited for Kari and Krystle to get to SD, then went to Riki's ( where I got trashed ) and we lost my car some how that night. Linda, Koichi, Crystal, and I went looking for it and couldn't find it. Then I send my boyfriend and Richie to go look for it and they find it. Went back to La Jolla and KOed for the night. Alcohol won me over.

Saturday ( Halloween ) Slept til 2, and Jake and I met up with Richie to get free burritos from Chipotle! YES! FTW. Went make up shopping and bought M.A.C's 227 brush, their lipgelee in Gold something, and a new eyeliner. After we picked up Dynise then Krys and Kari at Rikis' house. I got ready, went back to Riki's to drop the car off, then walked 29130213098231098 miles because our asses didn't want to get caught with our booze! hahaha. Then we made it to Myles and had so much fun! <3 Went home at 2 and Jake got sick.

Sunday came home and worked :( boo boo boo!

but here's some pictures as well.

Fall brings in the new!

Hello loves<3

Well well well, where do I start from?!?!? 

I think it'll be the best to start with HELLO FALL.

For the people reading this who does NOT live in California, the weather out here is starting to change drastically in just a week! We went from uncomfortably hot to cool breezes and warm skies. Which, in my opinion, WHO CAN NOT WANT THAT?!?!? um, what else is new..... OH I GOT A LIP RING. what the hell I know! For most of you who knows me well though, you have known that I've wanted my lip pierced since I was a freshman, but my parents never approved. Well five years later, + a job + being 19, I GOT IT. My mom kinda likes it, which is a giant step up from,"AMANDA YOU WILL LOOK DISGUSTING WITH A LIP RING!" conversation we had 2 years ago. Jake ( boyfriend ) is heading back to UC San Diego on saturday, which kind of depresses me because for 3 months he was there at my leisure. If I wanted to do something he was around, and it was nice to have him around.  But alas, fall is in the air and everyone must get themselves back to their routines. Which makes sense because most of the fall happens around planning and routines and etc. yadda yadda yadda. We ended the summer ( well his summer ) nicely by going to Las Vegas for his basketball tournament. It was a fun trip and a good way to say goodbye to summer. Well, my mother is calling me for dinner right about now. Ta ta for now <3

XO's

Fare thee well summer

Until next year my dear love

Schools back in session, which means papers, books, and spending $$$ to buy the books and write those papers.  But it means that I always have something to do; yet there aren't enough hours in the day to stay busy all the time. I like that summer is gone because the icky humid and hot weather is gone for a year, but summer means old friends and freedom. And summer is one of the best times for love! 

But what on earth did I do this summer?

-Got a tan ! Finally

-Saw all of my old friends from high school who went away for college

-Got to see her best friends all the time

-Swimming

-Vacation in Lake Tahoe!

-Lots of Jake time <3

-Movies galore!

-Disneyland always

-Shopping !

-Warped Tour 09' 

-VODKA !! <3 

-Being around my favorite people

-Torrance beach with my love

-Drinking with the lovelies 

-Clubbing with the girls & bf

-Seeing the guys get kicked out of the club

-Making new friends 

-Having a kick ass summer (:

I loved summer, but now its time to buckle down ):

Oh well, I'm welcoming the fall semester with open arms

Do your worse to me 

XO's

Summer 09'

Is looking fine! <3

Drinks with my favorite people, nights and days with the boy, and family time all the time?! What more can I really ask for!

Prior to all of this, I've realized that I've gained weight -___- and I look hideous now a days! Gross. So now running in the mornings ( if I can wake up) because during the summer I've been getting extremely lazy and in no mood to wake up and run or anything! -___- horrible I know. But I'm going to get my ass back into shape! :)

But this weather is great! Warm beach weather & its relaxing to me surprisingly! But what's really making me the happiest girl EVER, is that I'm seeing my friends more often, which makes me a happy camper :) 

OH And I got to have dinner with my darling Casey! <3>

But to sum it all up, Summer 09' is turning into the best summer ever <3

Have a safe summer loves!

XO's.

All Time Low - Vegas

I love that song. :)

I've been M.I.A from my blog, but I worked 6 days straight, so I was tired -___-

haha anyways, summer is great<3

I love it so far! :)

Update more later, I must go to sleep soon!

Goodnight loves <3

XO's

I'll be ok, or that's what I'll say.

Sigh, alright so how on earth do I start this blog?

Let me start by saying how I appreciate good friends

They will listen to you when you need to cry and when you're upset.

They'll lift your spirits and lift you back up. 

And I'm grateful to have them in my life. 

First of all, I hate serving ungrateful people who do not appreciate anything. Who complain about small things, I'm sorry I am human as well. I understand where you came from, but really you have no idea what it is like to serve people all day, its miserable work. And Do not talk about me and act like I have no idea what you're saying, I am not worthless, frankly I think it is you who are worthless because of the things you say about people. And I am not the dumbass who shall act like I'm a complete dimwit and apologize my ass off, I did one apology and if you do not want to accept it, then don't. But don't throw my apology on the floor and smash it. I really do not know why you would take it to that extent. I know I'm a horrible person now, but hey, I know that I have great people to fall back upon and you probably do as well, but I know I'll learn from this experience, you'll learn nothing. 

Well because of this terrifying night and stress-filled night, I'm going shopping tomorrow to get my mind off everything. Get some cute new outfits,shoes,and make up so I can renew myself and feel better about everything. :)

Will update tomorrow with my purchases<3>

XO's

What has become of this country

Not all who wander are lost - JRR Tolkien

What a wonderful phrase. It is completely true, just because we wander around with our heads in the clouds, it does not mean that we are lost. 

But as I sit here relentless about my life and just worried about passing all of my finals, two American, and let me repeat, AMERICAN journalists are in North Korea and are being held "prisoner" in my terms. The North Korean government sentenced them to 12 years of hard labor. My hearts go out to the families of Laura Ling and Euna Lee. 

Sigh, I know I'm only eighteen, but if I had any say into all of this, I would send some of our troops from Iraq to help get these two home. Why would America sit by and let them get their sentence, and they might never have the chance to go back home ever again? If I also had any huge say into anything else, it would be the environment, we're taking pretty bad care of it. We litter, thinking that it will be biodegradable, and we run more and more smog into our air. ( Ok I know I contribute to the smog, but I'm trying to bike around more! <3>

But anyways, I will be back later loves.

Have a great week and to all of the UC kids and El Camino kids

Good luck on your finals ! <3

XO's

How deep is your love?

I know you rise in the morning sun, I feel you touch me in the pouring rain. And the moment that you are far from me, I wanna feel you in my arms again. And you come to me on a summer breeze, keep me warm in your love and then softly leave. and its me  you need to show how deep is your love. Is your love, how deep is your love, I really need to learn. Cause we're living in a world of fools, breaking us down, they should all just let us be. We belong to you and me.

Download the Sex in the city:The Movie CD.

Even if you are mesmerized by their adorable outfits (like I am most of the time! <3)>

Summer time has stricken me, stricken me down with the relaxation and the hopes and promises of good times. This is the countdown.

XO's 

Viva Las Vega$$$

From the top of the Paris Eiffel Tower.

So Vegas was extremely fun! Got to gamble with my cousins, drink with my cousins, and have a good time overall!

The drive wasn't the best, but I was able to endure the damn drive! lols.

Anyways, I hope everyone else had a great Memorial Day weekend (:

I need to get my ass back in gear and get caught up with school!

Other than that, take care loves!

XO's 

Like a drug

Kylie Minogue is fierce! <3

Anyways, off to Vegas on friday for my cousin's birthday

But I have 3 more days of school to endure. 

Bring it on,bitches!

XO's

Twitter

I've tried twitter this week.

& I do not understand what the big hype about it is!

1st of all, its confusing to use. All it does is shows updates. 

No information about anything!

You cannot write all your emotions down, which confuses the heck out of me!

Screw twitter and long live on blogger! 

I MIGHT keep trying to figure that piece of shit out

But no doubt, I'm going to keep updating my blogger

Peace loves! <3

XO's

Don't Forget

I really do hope so as well. 

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Spring Break

Oh how I love thee 

Spring break comes and relaxes us all

*Sigh, now I wish it was summertime again!

but our California weather is coming back

Break out the dresses and shorts!

California in the summer, where else would I want to be?

XO's

Jason Reeves

Entwined, all that we are is defined by each other's shipwrecked hearts

Jason Reeves, amazing

Just bought his CD off iTunes, and it is absolutely wonderful

Happy Easter also btw!

XO's

Making this moment a crime

I think this picture is so pretty, i love it.

Um, life currently is me in a stress ball

Oh thank GOD for spring break. finally

All of those others at El Camino who's ready for spring break,

HOLLA <3

XO's

Kids with bad ideas

That's probably me. Ok, so here we go on my rant.

I was on my way home from San Diego, and the place Jake & I stayed at...

I left my overnight bag with my clothes and such in it

And a good mass of my cute jewelry. 

On the way home, I got a ticket on the 73. I was going over the speed limit

So I'm probably paying about...300+ dollars?

I was speeding to get to work on time ( my shift started at 12 )

Yeah...I arrived at 12:30. 

When I got there, the other person on the patio got cut fairly early

( Which in most cases was ok...just because I wanted the ca$$$h )

But... What actually ended up happening is most of the Lazy Dog's patio getting killed

-______- 

I'll be in debt 300+ dollars working my butt off. Great..

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Here's to the sunshowers

Southern California is not disappointing us with the sun or the rain. Its beautiful.
All sunshine all day, warm weather, beautiful skies, I love it !
The smog is a bit disappointing, but other than that, its alright
But other than that...
Soak up the sun and be safe loves ! <3


xo's. <3

Karma Points

Today when I was outside of Blockbuster returning some DVD's, there was a mother and her 2 kids outside of their car, with enough gas to get across the street to the gas station. She told me that they didn't have enough money to get home, so they really desperately needed gas. She asked if she could trade me a Blockbuster gift card for some cash so that they can get home. The first thing I thought of was "Why on earth would you go out when you know you don't have gas?" But I I did willingly give her 10$ so that mother and her kids could get home. I didn't take that gift card because I felt bad enough inside, so I think my good karma will be here for me. 

I felt really really good as I was walking away. The moments like these always remind me of the Kaiser Permanente commercials or something. To always give back. But then again, I'm a big sucker when it comes to these kinds of things, so that could be it as well.

And is it just me, or is Zac Efron gay? Really because I was watching High School Musical 3 with my 9 year old sister, and he looks prettier than Vanessa Hudgens! It was disturbing .... 

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Angel I love you

I love my boyfriend (:

Valentines day was a SUCESS, but the day after wasn't so much

I got stuff done in the morning, but when I got home

Instead of hanging out with Jake, I slept.

But oh how I love naps. They heal everything.

Jake leaves tomorrow, and school starts on Tuesday

On a positive note though, I'll have something to do now!

Well,something other than work, so I'll feel more productive

And I have something to look forward to at the end of the week...

Jake and I are going to a Laker Game on Friday !

Life is falling into place.

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Morning skies

I don't know what it is about sunrises, but it always puts a smile on my face. Always. 

Other than that, I love being a server right now :)

And I'm also so unbelievably happy because ABDC is back :)

FINALLY. Quest FTW. No doubt about it.

& IF anyone is keeping up with the City, tell me if the last few episodes are worth watching.

I watched the 1st episode and it was...ok I suppose, it won't be as good as the Hills

But its a replacement. Kinda. 

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Hello beautiful

"Hello beautiful, how's it going? I hear its wonderful in California. I've been missing you,its true. But tonight, I'm going to fly to you tonight. I'm going to fly. Cause I can go across the world and see everything & never be satisfied,if I couldn't see those eyes.

Hello beautiful, its been a long time. Since my phone's rung and you've been on that line. I've been missing you, its true. But tonight, I'm going to fly. Yeah tonight, I'm going to fly. Cause I can comb across the world and never be satisfied, if I couldn't see those eyes."

Disneyland with my darling tomorrow :)

then Disneyland AGAIN with the lovelies on Sunday!

This weekend will be the ultimate fun weekend !

(Minus Jake going back to UCSD again :[ ) 

But other than that, I'm looking forward to it all!

XO's